it's me. (:

hey guys. i was forced to blog. okay lah, but after seeing all your super long year 2005 reflections and stuff, yea, i should have stuff to say too.

firstly, i learnt alot this year. like, on the attitude problem thing that you all may not know. yea. i basically have an attitude problem. i struggled alot this year within myself and i slowly learnt what to do and handling all those crappy problems. i dont know why, but it seemed God never told me what to do. he may have been there and all, but hiyah, i was way disappointed in the way i solved problems. things will work out in the end, but those were possibly not the endings i wanted. encounter camp in november was great - there were lots of stuff i learnt and experience, and i could feel the importance of getting people to come and know Christ. yea, i really wanted to do all i can then. but after a while, the enthusiasm just died lah. i wonder where it went to. but anyway, i really want to go for baptism in january coz yea, it's really giving my life to Jesus and starting my whole life anew. so hopefully, i can be more positive and enthusiastic for church and truly being with God.

secondly, i hope to find myself this year. i want to find the person inside of me, really. i really don't want to be the person you all make me out to be. really, i don't. i'll try to open up to the cell group as well. lol! y'know, there are just somethings you don't want to talk about to some people. yea, in fact, i realised i never really shared some of the down times this year when i was going through some stuff. a recent xmas card from a friend once said she hasnt seen me sad or broken before...i keep it to myself and she said it was cool. and it's no fun coming to me when anyone has trouble or what cause i'll just give 'the face'. but i suppose cell is a group of people who support and help each other, isn't it. so yea. i'll start by at least adding you all on msn (i only have cand as a contact) and getting all your hp numbers right, i suppose. i'll try share, but i don't know how to go about doing it. -.-

so everyone, have a great year ahead. (: happy new year.



cheryl.

p.s. have you got your 4 ++ friends for the new year's bash?